Finally got my laptop back after a few days. Turned out the keyboard was faulty and it is replaced. 

AND today is the school deadline for final submission of PI so....... this means i have completed my PI YAY!!!! It wasn't easy but last minute work motivation really gave it a push hahahaha .

So 3 days ago out of my expectations, you actually continued my conversation at night. And of course the first day will be great, as always. It was really like a big bonus gift i never though would happen, hehe :-)

And today marks the end of our conversation. My busy schedule with so much commitments everywhere (Mostly school work of course), i knew we wouldn't make it. So yes, this problem surfaced again and today you said "I think we shouldn't talk anymore". BOOMZ. 

You're still rude with your vulgarities and telling me all over again how much of a loser i am to you. But worse of all you said something i thought i would only hear in the movies. "Knowing you was the biggest regret of my life and dating you was the worse decision made" Ouch. It was really courageous to say such words because it would have killed me mentally to say it and hurt someone this way. I'm not a saint but these words are really hard to say. I wouldn't say choosing you was the best choice i have made, but you just can't regret someone who (used to?) mean  the world to you. You (i) gave up so much for us if you realized. I hope it hurt you that little deep inside when you said it.

BUT i could somehow feel some intention over your words. It feels like you said that so my life is easier, or so i thought. 

Its pouring outside right now with the deafening thunder striking so ever often. Is this how my heart feels? Just kidding hahahahaha.