Went over to downtown east for my cousin's birthday chalet last night. 

Guess what? I'm screwed again. That place we were in for two nights, the road we walked to Mac to get food, the memories of you piggybacking me across the muddy soil, i know i'm screwed at that moment already. I've started stalking you a little here and there. I read through your notes. Those words were rather funny actually. "Don't be afraid to love when time comes" and "Believe in that person like i used to believe in you". I wish i could too lol. On the bright side wow, you know i am afraid to love now. You do? Or was it just some stuff that came out of your mouth randomly without much meaning to probe about.

Some weirdo started asking you weird questions of you ask.fm. Some of which are burning question i wanted to seek answers too so i read on. This is the most disappointing shit ever, but as always, from you. Someone asked you who you missed, you said your grandpa, fair enough. Then another person asked you whether you regretted doing anything, you said no... I just feel like a complete idiot right now. There you are in those notes telling me how sorry you are hoping i won't believe the mean words you said. Now its just showing me you're saying all these things out of desperation. You just missed me at that instant, that few days and boomz over. I fell prey to you again, sadly............ It would be a lie if i said i'm not hoping for anything but WHY am i still hoping. 

Why is it that when you miss someone, only their good will come to you. But when you have someone, all you see is how shitty of a person they are. Urgh, i need a long long hug right now telling me everything is going to be okay although you never told me that because you said you didn't want to lie to me.

If only i was stronger, you were stronger, we were stronger.